The Struggles of Online Dating

One thing I've learned while being back in the dating game is that some guys are frickin' weird. For funsies, I downloaded Bumble and Tinder shortly after my breakup. Before y'all go freaking out, I'm not looking for a boyfriend. All I want is someone to tell me I'm pretty and take me out to dinner and drinks. The last thing I need or want right now is commitment. Anyways, I thought that these apps would be a great confidence boost and help me get back into the swing of things. I also don't know how to go out and meet a guy because the only guys I know are the ones I work with and I still have yet to meet the love of my life at Target aka the holy land. So here are some of the struggles I've encountered with online dating.

Finding My Happiness

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Looking back on this past year, a lot has changed. I know a lot of people say that but this year has been an absolute rollercoaster and full of so many life changes. I started off this year hating my life at the tail end of my Disney College Program. The last few weeks of my DCP were so rough to the point where I was crying almost every day. I couldn't wait to go back to school and have things go back to what I considered "normal life". I got back to school and life was great and then I started to miss Disney. I knew my heart kept calling me back to Disney but my brain was telling to find a job closer to home. I followed my heart after graduation and thought I made the right choice.

Not Home for the Holidays

It's that time of year when the holiday season is in full swing. Between Halloween and Thanksgiving behind us and Christmas and New Years coming up, this is when I really start to miss home. This is my second winter living in Florida and honestly, it hasn't gotten much easier. As much as I love getting to see Christmas decorations at Disney World every day, nothing compares to Christmas at home and with my family. I miss the small things like hating snow so much during any other time of the year but having it bring so much joy waking up to it on Christmas morning. I miss seeing the Christmas tree lit up with presents underneath it brings back that childhood feeling and spending a little too much time with my family. There are so many things I miss but at the same time, I am so grateful of where I get to work and to see Cinderella Castle lit up every night. I get to experience a truly magical time of year in the most magical place.

Thankful

I know Thanksgiving is over but I'm just all in my feels right now. I didn't blog this past week because I was working a lot and wanted to take some time to myself and relax while off the clock. This year has been kind of rough and had a lot of life changes, but the other night while looking at Cinderella Castle all lit up for the holidays, it really hit me how thankful I am for the life I'm living. Sorry if this post gets a little sappy but oh well.

Have A Nice Day

Even though I work at Disney World, I rarely go to the parks outside of being at work. My roommate and I decided to go to Animal Kingdom for a few hours before she worked so I had to wear a Disney t-shirt there. The shirt company is linked below but you can check out their Instagram where they announce when their shop is open!

Hunkules - I mean Hercules - is one of my favorite Disney movies so when I saw this shirt, I needed it. I have another shirt from this company as well that says "Take me to Disney and tell me I'm pretty" and they are both amazing quality! I would definetly check them out if you want some cute Disney shirts.

Shirt | Shorts | Belt | Sunglasses | Converse

To The Blogging Bullies

With putting my life basically out there for the entire world to read about, there was something that really bothered me the other day and it deals with being made fun of. Ever since I made a blog way back in high school, I knew someone would eventually make fun of it, which is why I kept it hidden from everyone for the longest time. I was afraid I was going to be ridiculed and thought of as the weird blogger girl. But when I made my blog public for the first time in college, I overcame that fear. I'm not going to lie, I got made fun of for blogging even by people I thought I could be supported by. But my skin grew thicker and I dealt with it.

Dealing with a Breakup

So last week, I posted about my long distance relationship and I have some news for y'all. Jake broke up with me two nights later, completely out of the blue. At first I was so upset and angry and now, I'm relieved as crazy as that sounds. So in the same style as my long distance post, here are a few things I've learned in the past few days of dealing with a breakup.

It's okay to be sad. When Jake dumped me, I had no idea it was coming. We were doing just fine except for a few small fights here and there like normal couples but there was no indication of him breaking up with me the days prior. And I was so sad when he did it. Like sobbing uncontrollably, shaking, and hyperventilating sad. He's broken up with me before but it was just as bad. I thought I found my person and when my person didn't want to be with me anymore, it was a terrible feeling. So I let myself be sad that night and then decided that I'm not going to waste tears or being sad on him anymore.

Ruffles and Snakeskin

Fall in central Florida isn't like most other falls. It's beautiful and warm throughout the day and at night, it's not too bad out. My roommate Zoe and I went on a little roomie date since we were both off work the other day. We ate dinner at one of my favorite restaurants, Columbia Restaurant, and we also checked out this new raw cookie dough shop in Celebration called Wonderland Cookie Dough Co. It was absolutely delicious and I definitely plan on going back! Even though it was dark out, I wanted to get some pictures of my outfit to put on the blog. These photos were also taken on my new iPhone X so bare with me as I figure out editing and such!

Bodysuit | Jeans | Booties (similar) | Choker

Long Distance Lovin'

So I originally started this post while I was at the airport, waiting to board my flight to St. Louis to visit my boyfriend Jake. But in Kelsey fashion, this post sat in my drafts for a while and I figured I should probably post it.

If y'all don't know by now, I live in Florida and Jake is in Missouri, so Jake and I are clearly doing the long distance thing. To be completely honest, it's been hard but it's also been worth it. I've learned a lot about myself these past 5 months being long distance.

We have the cutest furbabies ever, Jack and Jill.

You learn to appreciate each other more. I only get to see Jake once a month if we're lucky and it's kind of sucky. But when we do get to visit each other, we really appreciate the time we spend together. As much as we like to go out and do things, especially while he's here visiting me, some of my favorite times spent with him are being lazy, watching Netflix, snuggling our furbabies, and eating pizza. Those moments are the ones I miss the most.

Three Months Later

So it's been a while since my last post. I've had other posts in my drafts ready to go but I just wasn't feeling that creative spark and decided not to post them quite yet. So I let my life kind of take over. Since my last post, I graduated from college, moved halfway across the country once again, and started my post-grad "adult" job as a VIP Tour Guide intern at Disney World. It's kind of crazy to reflect about how much as changed in the past few months. But I figured I would bring y'all up to speed on what's been going on.

The Disney College Program: My Experience

If you know me in real life, you would know that last semester I participated in the Disney College Program at Walt Disney World in Orlando, Fl. Since I came back from Florida, I've gotten so many questions about the DCP and the entire application process, so I figured to write some blog posts about it. This will be part one of two, possibly three or four parts because there is so much that I can talk about. But this first post will be about my experience in the DCP and it's going to be a very long post so I hope you're comfy and have plenty of snacks.

I applied for the DCP on the first day of applications opening up for the 2016 program on a whim. After submitting my application, I was offered a web-based interview (WBI). I'll go more into detail about all of this in a different post so just bear with me! I completed my WBI and was then offered a phone interview, which I scheduled for the first possible day. After spending a few weeks freaking out about all of this and not telling anyone that I applied except for my boyfriend at the time, I had my phone interview. On February 25th, basically a week before my 21st birthday, I received an email saying that I was selected to participate in the DCP! After thinking about it over and over, two days later, I accepted my offer, submitted my fees, and picked my arrival date of June 6th. Now came the long wait until I could actually move to Florida and man, it was a longgggg wait.

Life Lately

Here I am again, trying to get back into blogging. If you didn't know before, I used to have a blog back in the day. Well, that blog is long gone because looking back on it, it was a chapter of my life that I needed to close. I've honestly come a long way since then and to say the least, I changed, a lot.

I'm now a second semester senior in college with seven weeks left of school and I never thought I would be where I am now. Looking back on my freshman year of college up until now, I've done a complete 180. Freshman year, I went to a university where I knew two people. I rushed a sorority and thought it was the best decision of my life (more on that in another post). I met a boy that I fell head over heels in love with and was put through hell and back for the following three years. I found a college job where I made some of the best friends I'll ever have. I had extreme homesickness all throughout college but then decided to pack up my life and move halfway across the country for a semester. I fell deeply in love again with a different boy and never felt so broken and alone when he broke up with me (once again, more on that in different post). And now here I am, sitting in my college apartment, writing my first blog post in a very long time.